Don’t worry that will pass (no pun intended) soon.

Ok, so first off – well, you totally fked up, dude. If you want to cease smoking cigarettes you need to focus on that and only that. Keep nicotine in the scene, just learn to bail on the Scooby Smokes’ list of what keeps you coming back for more:
1) the hot smokie treats,
2) the whole oral obsession thing we all want to ignore/deny/whatever,
3) the “time-freakin-out” that stopping to light, puff or deal with a smokie treat provides smokers to pause & think it over a second before answering a question, asking one, whatever…the moments a smoker spends going through the motions of smoking but is really taking a mental moment to think things over before moving on [the age-old smokers who were around when we were still smoking at work & in restaurants & bars remember the days & know what I’m meaning here],
4) the personal-private whateverthehell reason YOU smoke,
5-10+) additional fill-in-the-blank reasons an otherwise completely sane person still smokes cigarettes: I get it; I’m a citizen of the same land.
But I accidentally found a way out. I didn’t quit smoking or stop smoking…I just kinda knocked it off.
It happened with the aid of a device which is NOT a “smoking-cessasion device”. They make that extremely clear, the salesmen that is; and the website(s).
It is not a smoking-cessation device.
It is a nicotine replacement device. But it made me quit smoking. It fked up totally & now I don’t even pay it’s manufacuturer for replacement cartridges anymore because I stopped using it, too.
I was totally jazzed to get it; no more rubbish from butts & mess from ash, no more cigarette stink in my world. Thank you! Happy Birthday to me (yes, it was a b.d. gift)!!
Within a few days of owning it I ran out of “regular” cigarettes (because I was still hungry for “real” cigarettes) & decided to wait it out & see what happened.
Well, I puffed on my little e-cig & bopped along. No run amok irritations, no bizarre or murderous daydreams, & no weight gain.
Nice.
Then I notice the habits I was developing – like always puffing on my e-cig while driving my car. So I made the effort to avoid being a creature of habit.
After a few weeks of making my new normal to go for my e-cig only when I felt some kind of “need” & the next thing I knew was one day I was hunting for it & found it needed a charge before I could use it.
So I didn’t get my nicotine & plugged in the e-cig for recharging.
Time passed, it got its full charge, & my need passed without getting fulfilled, so I just skipped away.
Several more days passed and they’ve transformed into weeks. Sure, it’s only been a grand total of 6 months since I got my e-cig, which is NOT a smoking-cessation device…but it has its charms.
I apologize for the windiness & hope its helped.
Good Luck Chris, all your fans hope you’re “go”ing these days!!!

This just queues up to the crescendo: Find better coffee. “Regular” coffee tastes like stale horseshit that has been lying in a ditch for weeks, but fresh ground, newly roasted coffee of good origins will make you happy once more, I bet.