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"Do you have a real job??" -- e-mail excerpt
11-08-01 - 2001 A.D... D.
I'm generally not much of a hypochondriac, but I was recently having a conversation with some friends about Attention Deficit Disorder, and it suddenly struck me that I might have it.
I have considered the possibility that I have ADD prior to this conversation, but never seriously. But suddenly, it hit me. I must have it! That must be why my mind wanders, why I can't concentrate on work, why I can never remember to pay my bills, why I often find myself pantsless... and any number of a million little problems I've had for some time.
I took a little online test, and knew I was in trouble right away. The test was comprised of a list of behaviors, which you would rate numerically as to how seriously they applied to you. Things like "Easily distracted, tendency to drift away" and "Tendency to be easily bored (spaces out)" and "Tendency to invade vampire chat rooms and act like a schmuck."
Actually, the first thing I noticed was that the test had 76 questions. That struck me as odd. I mean, come on! If I have ADD, how the hell am I supposed to concentrate long enough to answer 76 questions? That's like a doctor who specializes in acrophobia having an office at the top of the Sears Tower. You're not even giving the patient a chance to help himself.
Of course, it dawned on me that the very fact I would think the test was too long might be just another indication that I am suffering from ADD. I was playing right into this test's hands! Clever, test, clever. I kept going.
"#18: Trouble sitting still, such as trouble sitting in one place for too long, sitting at a desk job for long periods, sitting through a movie."
Currently, I am having trouble sitting at a desk job for long periods, although this is mostly due to the goddamn intercom going off (in fact, it interrupted me twice while I was taking the test).
"#19: An internal sense of anxiety or nervousness"
It's pretty obvious I've got that one down pat. Maybe the ADD Foundation is looking for a spokesperson...
"#26: Frequent, impulsive job changes"
Ha ha ha! Ha ha! Ha... ha. heh. huh.
"#29: Poor organization and planning, trouble maintaining an organized work/living area"
Okay, I'm screwed. I'm totally screwed! I'm so screwed!
"Poor organization and planning, trouble maintaining an organized work/living area"
"Chronically late or chronically in a hurry"
"Poor financial management (late bills, check book a mess, spending unnecessary money on late fees)"
"Singing songs about barbeque wings before obliviously whomping women in the crotch with said wings"
Hoo boy. Well, it certainly wasn't looking good. Of course, some things I didn't feel applied to me:
"Skips around while reading or trouble staying on track" - Reading, I do just fine. I don't absorb a word of it, at least not for very long, but I can read the crap out of stuff.
"Say just what comes to mind without considering its impact" - I rarely say anything without thinking about it first. In fact, I rarely say anything, period.
"Spends excessive time at work because of inefficiencies" - Ha! That'll be the day. I may be inefficient, sure, but come 5:00PM, I'm gone like a shot.
"Failure to see others' needs or activities as important" - Well, take my co-workers. I definitely see their needs and activities as important. I just happen to not care.
"Tendency to embarrass others" - No. Myself, sure. Others, no.
"Poor writing skills (hard to get information from brain to pen)" - Bah! I write a daily website! No way in hell am I having problem with information getting to page from brain or pen with difficulties! Stupid is that!
Anyway, I took the whole thing, and just as I thought, the test informed me that "may have Adult ADD." But that's all it said. No in-depth analysis of my answers, or how serious it might be, or anything. Just one sentence, after all that work and fidgeting and daydreaming. Thanks a lot, test.
Anyway, here's the link to the test I took. For me, the whole thing was a little alarming. Do I really have ADD? Should I really be concerned? It bugged me for the rest of the day. Well, for a couple hours, anyway. Then I kinda lost interest.
11-07-01 - Hitting the Cruise Button
As you've probably noticed, the entertainment industry is in an uproar over how to deal with the terrorist attacks. They're going nuts trying to remove anything having to do with the attacks, altering New York skylines with computers, pushing back releases of movies dealing with terrorists, etc. They even pulled a Seinfeld rerun, the one where George's fiancée died from licking poisoned envelopes, due to the anthrax situation.
(On the other hand, other shows are rushing to be topical. The West Wing, for example, had a special dealing with the attacks, and CBS's The Agency has an episode dealing with anthrax due to air this Thursday (although this episode, too, was delayed several times). Other examples abound, I'm sure.)
The reason I bring all this up is because I wrote a movie review a while back, and the movie (and therefore the review) features not only the deliberate crash of a civilian jetliner, but also a bioterrorism plot.
Now, I'm not trying to draw any parallels between this website and the entertainment industry, but I felt a little weird about posting the review for the same sorts of reasons. You don't want to present something that's meant to be entertainment and wind up bumming people out because it reminds them of the attacks. Hell, even watching a silly movie like Airplane! these days could make you uneasy. It's almost ridiculous, but it's true. The other day I was flipping through a Calvin & Hobbes book and came across a comic where Calvin is (imagining) crashing a plane, and I thought, in a word, "Guh."
So, a review of a movie that involves planes crashing and bioterrorism might not be what the doctor ordered right about now.
On the other hand, running the review gives me a chance to make fun of Tom Cruise. Terrorists be damned, I can't give up that God-given right.
So, uh, here's my review of Mission: Impossible 2!
11-06-01 - Temp Chat: D-FENS
Once again, I infiltrated an IRC channel to find temps. Once again, I found not a single temp, but at least I found someone willing to talk about them. Of course, once he started talking about temps, he wouldn't shut up. Worse than that, he was talkin' trash, which got my dander up.
a partial transcript of me going undercover in one of the highly
entertaining vampire chat rooms.
11-05-01 - Temp Chat! Extra Hostile!
So, for the past couple weeks I've been hitting the chat channels on IRC, looking for temps and finding either stony silence or complete intolerance. To this day, I have found exactly zero temps online, and what's worse is that for the most part, the people who actually bother talking to me don't even know what a temp is. The one thing most of these "conversations" have in common seems to be this little exchange:
Still, I recently made some headway, that is, I found people who at least sort of knew what temps are. Only problem is, they have a low opinion of them. Very low. Which led to an interesting phenomenon: me getting defensive.
Seems that as much as I complain about temps and temping, if someone else does it, I get incredibly annoyed. Who knew?
here's a recent chat session I had.
----- More defensive
posturing tomorrow. Now, for Diversions: Sent in by James,
it's Boinkmail! Have embarrassing packages sent to co-workers
you hate! Looks like fun. Also, a small game called Worm,
sent in by Sarah, which can be pretty challenging. Finally, Habbo
Hotel, which is a cool kind of chat room, one where you can actually
walk around, swim in pools, dance, buy drinks, and all sorts of cool stuff
(requires Flash). Enjoy! Links are on the sidebar, and don't
pick on the temps, dammit!
More defensive posturing tomorrow. Now, for Diversions: Sent in by James, it's Boinkmail! Have embarrassing packages sent to co-workers you hate! Looks like fun. Also, a small game called Worm, sent in by Sarah, which can be pretty challenging. Finally, Habbo Hotel, which is a cool kind of chat room, one where you can actually walk around, swim in pools, dance, buy drinks, and all sorts of cool stuff (requires Flash). Enjoy! Links are on the sidebar, and don't pick on the temps, dammit!
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